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Quick move so much easier

Post 10 - shorter posts funnier messages

That's real life. I like that he just assumed meeting me was in the cards. Woman of his dreams? I doubt it. I would rip the kids heart out in a second.

Debating moving this to a tumblr.

Post 9 -- Not an OkC bashing post but how I feel D'awwwwh

I was writing in my fetlife blog today and thought I would share what I produced.

The title of it was "Pure innocent uninhibited"

That's all I was thinking when I was watching this docu on NetFlix.

It's called David and Monica. They are two adults who have Down Syndrome and are getting married. The connection between the two of them is so innocent... uninhibited... unrequited... pure fucking love. I often wonder why most people never hit that level.

Shit I fall in love 500 times a day. Not really, but if I see someone who is attractive or talk to someone who piques my interest... I'm in love. Usually just for a nanosecond, but it still counts.

I have been in REAL love maybe 3 times in my life. Each time was very very different and I learned from each experience.

To be honest though I've been waiting for someone to floor me in a sense. Maybe it's a movie mentality thing, a woman thing, a dreamer's thing. I do believe that one day I'll be meandering around and bump into the man of my dreams. (Or woman) In that moment there will need to be no words spoken.

Direct eye contact. A warm smile. A touch that sends electricity through my entire body. Energy exchange. A heart so full it's almost bursting through my chest. Love and warmth radiating through my entire body pouring from me to them and them to me.

Understanding. Acceptance. Forgiveness. Thankfulness. Passion. Trust. Respect. Honesty. Lust. Desire. Hunger. Thirst. Motivation. Patience. Nurturing. Inspiration. Powerful. Faithfulness. Spontaneous. Beautiful. Intensity.

Those are just some of the words I want to describe the next relationship I seem myself in. I feel as though everyone strives to achieve that in some way shape or form.

Sometimes I think I'm so obsessed with the idea of love that it's almost an obsession. I love love. I love being able to care for someone and give myself to them. To take care of them, please them, be everything they want me to be.

Someday.

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I promise I'll hop back on the blogging horse soon. Just been so busy with work and bullshit.

Much Love
Tanya